HOPE..

Today, I was thinking back to the beginning of our relationship and remembered how hopeful I was.  I remembered that the hope I had in the beginning turned to pure JOY.  The love I received from Tim brought me JOY.   I AM grateful for that love.    Loving someone unconditionally is wonderful and losing that person brings unimaginable heart break.  I think that is the price you pay for experiencing JOY.   I would not take back any moment I was blessed enough to experience with Tim and in retrospect the price is worth it.      Now, knowing this and making choices for my life going forward, I will always think twice because paying that price again may take me under.    

Maybe tomorrow I will feel different???